Saturday, October 22, 2011

FICTION~~~~~~~~~~~showing my feel




I still can’t forget you
I still can’t trust everything
Even today I can’t send you away like this
.
I will rewrite it again, our story will not end
I will bury fact that reality is seeping into my skin for now
I rewrite it once again, the start beginning with you and I smiling happily
In case you will leave me, the background is a small room without an exit

I can’t leave your sweet presence
There is no such thing as an end for us

Like this again
I can’t forget you
I am writing the story that will never end in my heart
  
I will hold on to you
I won’t let you go
Even today, I’m in the story of you and I that hasn’t ended still, in Fiction

Right now, there are only happy stories here
The very happy stories of just the two of us (Different from reality)
Is written here, it’s slowly filling up

I run towards you and embrace you
I can’t never let you go from my embrace
There is no such thing as an end for us
 
Like this again
I can’t end it
I am writing the story that will never end in my heart
 
I will hold on to you
I won’t let you go
Even today, I’m in the story of you and I that hasn’t ended still, in Fiction
 
I will say this again, one more time
Right now you are next to me
I’m believing like that
.
But Fiction
I’m the writer who lost his purpose
The end of this novel, how am I supposed to write it
My own Fiction
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I keep writing these 3 words
(Everything is Fiction) Setting the warn out pen on the old paper strained in tears 
Everything is Fiction)
This story can’t be happy or sad
.
Right now I’m writing such a happy story
But it is all just a wish still
.
I’m happy
We are together
Now is the start
There is no end

Thursday, October 13, 2011

This Is What I Feel Now~~~~~~ UGLY!!!!!





 
I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side
All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone
There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly